I’ve been taking classes at my place of yoga, at a small Buddhist yoga studio, for about 7 months. At the beginning of my first class with my yoga teacher he said that if he had to distill yoga down to two words it would be ‘let go’. What I didn’t realize then is that in order to let something, anything go, you have to feel it first.
For a person who keeps it all in, feeling any emotion, bad or good, is extremely difficult. The first few months of yoga were incredibly painful. Emotionally painful. It’s only recently have I been able to leave yoga without feeling destroyed, my self in a million little pieces, my body twitching and heavy with emotional energy more than physical exhaustion. Why did I keep going back? Because every time I put my self back together again, I have a little more clarity.
Now, most of the time, I leave feeling good, relaxed, released, but not tonight. Tonight I’m feeling that bottle energy that I don’t know what to do with. The kind I’m trying to release, but I don’t know where to go with it. Is it sadness or anger or frustration? And about what. I had a pretty good day honestly, but there’s just this heightened energy coming from somewhere.
